Redemption

Words by Steven Robert Esteves (1978-2021) Music by Jason Paul Composed in 1997 I have lived a strange life my child And of all things pure and all those wild I have never been more than a fantasy In your mind…giving you happiness to pass the time And still you lurk for more, What could lie beneath this cold shell You demand, but you’ll never understand I will not give you the chance To mispronounce me I’ll hide in the nest of misanthropy Keeping a view or a leash if you will, To hold you and bind you to be my kill If you knew the truth, you could not handle me, my friend So I choose to deny you all over again I carried your cross, but just for a while I gave you some hope, set you free from your bile Taught you to trust, in my own little way I set your heart free from those slavery days Who you loved was not me at all But you had no problems taking that fall You believed in a picture and a story of glass To see was a choice, now it is yours alas So maybe I cannot feel your kind of love Dancing and laughing from the heavens above But fear not, sweet Steven, The one who’s heart I hold… I wish I could keep it For mine is shit, Plated with gold